learning relation, again, at 32

-----Original Message-----
From: ajk
Sent: Friday, September 17, 2004 10:08 AM
To: jjl
Subject: RE: all of this

i remember those leg pains. lying in bed, ache in the shins, smoothing the sole of my foot up and down on my sheets trying to stretch it out. but how to stretch out a pain in the bone? the usual remedies don't apply.

so yes, growing pains. this learning anew, reforming, reshaping. becoming. hard - despite the wonder of it - to shed old habits, old patterns. constant vigilance the price for the privilege of standing this one foot to the left, of seeing new perspective.

i'm believing in the work, though, and in the benefit of it all, the move towards wholeness. we can do this.

-----Original Message-----
From: jjl
Sent: Friday, September 17, 2004 9:53 AM
To: ajk
Subject: all of this

when i was a kid they called it growing pains. unexplicable leg aches or other mysterious forms of suffering. which i felt. and may be feeling now. growing pains. the ache of change. how the snake feels shedding its skin. how a newborn mammal gets squeezed so hard in the muscular grip and hard bone passage of its mother's body. Condensing oneself down into a tight shape, being pushed along by larger forces. a body has to take a lot of pressure to come into the world. so here's to that pressure. here's to coming into the world. we can do this